I go through patterns of activity and laziness. Last week was the week of activity. I went to the gym Sunday through Thursday and ate ridiculously well. On Saturday, we ate a brewery (grilled cheese on artisan bread, lots of beers, more lots of beers) and ever since then I have been in an activity slump. Some of my days this week have consisted of staying inside until 4pm and maybe going for a walk in the park, but nothing too strenuous. My eating has been average, but I have not been as careful as I was last week.
I hate when I get like this.
I start watching odd television late at night (documentaries on serial killers, for instance). During day time hours, I watch cheesy movies on Lifetime and other cable channels.
Fourth of July was fun, but it also featured a lack of activity. I ate so much to the point where I had stomach camps; whenever stomach cramps arise from eating, it truly is a low-in-life moment. We all definitely had a fun time, but when I looked at the photos from yesterday, I was disappointed. In full body view, I look heavy. My legs look like they struggle with carrying the rest of my weight. My face has always been round, but now it is even rounder, thus making my eyes look like small, crinkly orbs.
I often wonder if my days of laziness are connected to where I live. I know plenty of people who hike and do "nature things" in NJ, but those types of activities do not immediately come to my mind when I think of New Jersey. Instead, I think of shopping malls. I yearn to move out of NJ. It's expensive, it's crowded, and every time I look around it seems like more land is being plowed over and replaced with unnecessary condos and stripmalls. Today, I Googled Eugene, Oregon. Eugene's nicknames include "Emerald City" and "Emerald Valley." The city's motto is "A Great City for the Art and Outdoors."
I often wonder what I would be like if I lived somewhere that encouraged activity and community involvement. Would I be biking around town with my canvas tote bag and locally grown fruits and veggies? I know that image is so ridiculously stereotypical, but I wouldn't mind epitomizing that image.
As I have often said before, I am "okay" being in NJ for now but eventually... I need to go somewhere else. I should be cautious with my usage of "eventually." If I keep saying "eventually" and do not take any initiative, I might be stuck here.
I hate when I get like this.
I start watching odd television late at night (documentaries on serial killers, for instance). During day time hours, I watch cheesy movies on Lifetime and other cable channels.
Fourth of July was fun, but it also featured a lack of activity. I ate so much to the point where I had stomach camps; whenever stomach cramps arise from eating, it truly is a low-in-life moment. We all definitely had a fun time, but when I looked at the photos from yesterday, I was disappointed. In full body view, I look heavy. My legs look like they struggle with carrying the rest of my weight. My face has always been round, but now it is even rounder, thus making my eyes look like small, crinkly orbs.
I often wonder if my days of laziness are connected to where I live. I know plenty of people who hike and do "nature things" in NJ, but those types of activities do not immediately come to my mind when I think of New Jersey. Instead, I think of shopping malls. I yearn to move out of NJ. It's expensive, it's crowded, and every time I look around it seems like more land is being plowed over and replaced with unnecessary condos and stripmalls. Today, I Googled Eugene, Oregon. Eugene's nicknames include "Emerald City" and "Emerald Valley." The city's motto is "A Great City for the Art and Outdoors."
I often wonder what I would be like if I lived somewhere that encouraged activity and community involvement. Would I be biking around town with my canvas tote bag and locally grown fruits and veggies? I know that image is so ridiculously stereotypical, but I wouldn't mind epitomizing that image.
As I have often said before, I am "okay" being in NJ for now but eventually... I need to go somewhere else. I should be cautious with my usage of "eventually." If I keep saying "eventually" and do not take any initiative, I might be stuck here.
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