I just finished looking through a bunch of photos from the past few years. It's amazing how my face seems to change from photo to photo. In certain photographs, I definitely have the ability to resemble a chipmunk. In other photos, my legs look chubby. They remind me of my mother's legs. That, in effect, then reminds me of my mother's walk--- moreso a wobble. I don't ever want to be a wobbler.
I can truly say that for nearly half of my life, I have been aware of my eating and exercise habits. "The wedding miracle" occurred in 2008. I ate tons of Fiber One bars and went to the gym a reasonable 4x a week. For my wedding, I got down to my lowest weight in years. The fact that the number was 152 is laughable, but for me, I felt svelte and skinny.
Over the past few years, I've struggled with the number on the scale. That struggle coincides with our purchase of our first home. I blame stress and cortisol on the fact that the number has not budged. The lowest I've been in years is 164.
I've wanted to lose weight for various reasons. My health is important to me, but so is fitting into the many pairs of pants in my closet. Vanity is another reason. Many of us do not want to openly admit it, but I will. i want to lose weight so that I "look" better.
One weight loss reason that has never crossed my mind is preferential treatment. What I mean by that is the idea that if one is thinner then he/she will be treated better at work and just in everyday circumstances. Some might argue that "attractive people" get treated better because perhaps they have higher self-esteem than us frumpy people. That's bullshit. Attractive, thin people get treated better because that's how life. I'm sure there is some conquest/sexuality factor too.
The point is this... it dawned on me the other day. I think I want to lose weight so that I get treated better. Currently, I'm not being mistreated by people nor do I feel "downtrodden." I'd just like to see how people treat me better. Again, if I did this "experiment" and found that people did indeed treat me better, people would analyze the experiment and say my self-esteem improved and that is why it "seems" people are treating me better. Again, bullshit.
I found this great blog post that relates to this post's topic:
http://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-12360/what-losing-100-pounds-taught-me-about-how-we-treat-overweight-people.html
Google "are thinner people treated better" and there are tons of search results. It's definitely a phenomenon.
I've been eating crazy healthy and have been keeping up with gym workouts. I'm sitting here, craving leftover Valentine's Day candy, but instead will just drink water and lemon.
Social experiment...in progress.
I can truly say that for nearly half of my life, I have been aware of my eating and exercise habits. "The wedding miracle" occurred in 2008. I ate tons of Fiber One bars and went to the gym a reasonable 4x a week. For my wedding, I got down to my lowest weight in years. The fact that the number was 152 is laughable, but for me, I felt svelte and skinny.
Over the past few years, I've struggled with the number on the scale. That struggle coincides with our purchase of our first home. I blame stress and cortisol on the fact that the number has not budged. The lowest I've been in years is 164.
I've wanted to lose weight for various reasons. My health is important to me, but so is fitting into the many pairs of pants in my closet. Vanity is another reason. Many of us do not want to openly admit it, but I will. i want to lose weight so that I "look" better.
One weight loss reason that has never crossed my mind is preferential treatment. What I mean by that is the idea that if one is thinner then he/she will be treated better at work and just in everyday circumstances. Some might argue that "attractive people" get treated better because perhaps they have higher self-esteem than us frumpy people. That's bullshit. Attractive, thin people get treated better because that's how life. I'm sure there is some conquest/sexuality factor too.
The point is this... it dawned on me the other day. I think I want to lose weight so that I get treated better. Currently, I'm not being mistreated by people nor do I feel "downtrodden." I'd just like to see how people treat me better. Again, if I did this "experiment" and found that people did indeed treat me better, people would analyze the experiment and say my self-esteem improved and that is why it "seems" people are treating me better. Again, bullshit.
I found this great blog post that relates to this post's topic:
http://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-12360/what-losing-100-pounds-taught-me-about-how-we-treat-overweight-people.html
Google "are thinner people treated better" and there are tons of search results. It's definitely a phenomenon.
I've been eating crazy healthy and have been keeping up with gym workouts. I'm sitting here, craving leftover Valentine's Day candy, but instead will just drink water and lemon.
Social experiment...in progress.
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